It’s funny as a couple of weeks ago I was doing Live Sound gig and was feeding audio from a DJ for parts of the event. After chatting he happened to be a Lawyer for the Boston District Attorneys Office but DJs for enjoyment and used to do some live sound work. He mentioned he wanted to work with me, but one thing that struck me was how definitely he stated his dislike of studio audio recording and the reason being that he didn’t have the PATIENCE for it. It has kind of stuck in my mind since.
Another anecdote, Veronique showed me a small fly on her hand and that this type of fly has a 24hr lifespan. I said I knew that but that I thought that it was very very profound and I likened it to our human lifespan and condition. She responded by saying that I seem to think that I feel old, (she being in her 60’s and I in my later 40’s). I always listen to my elders when they discuss these things and Veronique is a very spiritual person. She said why do you feel old? I said that I don’t really feel old in most ways and I am not sure you want to hear my current perspective. She said she did want to hear. I proceeded to tell her that I have been struggling with our finite existence. Given the avg. lifespan of approx 79 yrs of age that at my age, one can actually count the number of days one might on average expect to live! I mean now at this age I know what 30 more years feels like and it is not as long as It seemed to be when I was younger. I said, this very real perspective is jarring and that it may incite one to either live their best life or it can also cripple the spirit and cause one to become immobile or overwhelmed. I said almost the only solace is that it is a shared human condition/life model, we all live this. Veronique usually has some perspective to add to a conversation such as this but….she got quiet. In that moment we shared a moment, the perspective of our own mortality…….we basked in the shared reality of our existence and it rendered us silent but very human. The Fly was a fly and we were both humans. Rather than fall into nihilism, for me the only answer is Love. While romantic love in my life can only be described as tragic and perplexing and while the model of our finite lives sometimes does paralyze me, I can only disseminate that spreading Positivity and Love to everyone I can is the only thing left.
In this Studio Life the task is so involved there is often limited time to share our humanity. My I am an audio renegade with no daily or weekly working colleagues. Everyone else I see on varying intermittent schedules and compared to my work in science which had its solitary moments for sure, the studio can be a reclusive life. Some make an album a year or less and others I do get to work with regularly and get to know. For certain I have been blessed with great clients (many of which I consider great friends) and I do my best to embrace our time together driven by the spirit of sharing music! To all of those young aspiring studio engineers out there, don’t forget to work with love in your heart. These are your working relationships and perhaps your only opportunities to engage and affect people in a positive way in your life. It has become part of the meaning of my life.
It is in this light that I hope to develop an independent record label and possibly changing my studio name to “Spread Love records/studios”!!!